Rise and fall

I am watching the rise and fall of my salvation There's so much much shit around me Such a lack of compassion I thought it would be fun and games Instead it's all the same I want something to do Need to feel sickness In You I feel the reason, as it's leaving me No, not again It's quite deceiving, as I'm feeling The flesh made me bad All I do is look for you I need a fix You need it to Just to get some sort of attention Attention What does it mean to you? For me, it's somthing I just do I want something I need to feel the sickness in you