Parole libere

Is it so bad to finish your life
when you are only a dead man walking
an empty and aching soul
a soul murdered by yourself ?

when you discovered you killed your love
when you discovered you never made your choose
but somebody has always decided for you
so I lived only under stupid illusions and false decisions

I never loved myself treating myself as a puppet
so I missed the Love being blind and deaf
I shattered her and I shattered myself again
so I discovered I am nothing absolutely nothing

an empty body full of someone else thoughts
with only the illusion to be loved
who can love a man with no warm heart
a machine with no sense of its deep soul?

So does make it sense to continue like this?
Probably the best way is to eliminate myself
The world it has no more meaning for an empty soul
Noone will cry much for a robot with a heart of stone

I am tired of suffering, I have never really lived
so sick with my empty and useless words
only a player of words without humanity
who cannot understand nothing of life

so God let me know why i should continue this absurd game?
a game which I have never played at all, as i was a spectator
and when you sent me a fantastic person which explained it to me
I killed her because I have not understood again

so let me know.....why do I have to continue again?
To let you laugh about this stupid creature?

Every day that pass it's a pain that add its weight
on my empty soul and on my hollow heart
making it so hard to continue my life
a life useless and without any sense

so I will go, with a false smile on my face
with my mask well fixed on my dead body
noone will notice any kind of difference
because It's from long time that I am a dead soul

and a dead soul cannot understand the beauty of love
it can only understand the obscurity and dephthness of death
in its shadow I have passed quite my entire life
thinking to be in the light but being only in the darkest path of death

so I hope I can find relief in death
it has been my real companion for years
shattering my  life day by day
so I will return where I have been generated

in the darkest and gloomy part of Hell
and not as I thought in the Light
so I will return to the Land of Deads
I cannot bear the Land of The Living anymore